The Land of Never Say Never

It can be quite funny when you find out you are wrong.
All these years and the whole time I thought I was a good citizen of The Land Of I Am In Control.

And it’s not like I shouldn’t have known. The evidence to the contrary was there for me to see.

But apparently I am not so smart.
Not this guy.
No Sir and No Ma’am.

As it turns out, I was a temporary resident-alien in The Land of Never Say Never.

After the life changing events that happened to my family on October 10, 2011, I was in shambles—emotionally, spiritually, mentally, and physically. It didn’t happen all at once. Instead, it involved a long progression on a steeply graded slope. Hitting bottom was painfully harsh.

Looking back, God helped me make some fantastic choices—and blessed me in amazing ways. I could have never had the foresight needed to see me where I am now.

But on the other hand, I also stubbornly got in His way and made some boneheaded decisions in the process.

Some of those decisions were astronomically dumb. Truthfully, there were many days where I didn’t give God much to work with.

However, with my feet planted firmly in the dirt of Never Say Never, I forged ahead anyway. I didn’t get very far, mind you, but I tried. I tried to be in control. I tried to be the master of my own destiny. I tried to force life to fit my terms, my conditions. I tried so very hard.

And, much to my chagrin, it turns out my entire existence has been lived in the Land of God’s Got This!

We used to sing He’s Got The Whole World In His Hands.
And He does.

Maybe we should dust that one off and sing it some more.

Like mine, your life may look nothing like you planned. Circumstances and situations may be disheartening. Difficulties may come and go. Pain may be an ever-present distraction.

But God?
He’s got this!

In that respect, I so love Joshua’s words to Israel as they prepared to enter the Promised Land…

“Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go.” (Joshua 1:9, NIV)

God’s Got This!

Les Ferguson, Jr.

4 thoughts on “The Land of Never Say Never

  1. Les, I stumbled upon your story (a friend of a friend off Facebook) and I am spent with emotion just reading your story. My dear brother, would that I could simply sit among the ashes with you in silence and bear witness to your life, your story. Would that time and distance were not real and I could hear tell of your wife, your son, their lives and yours, how they uniquely bore God’s image in the world before they were ripped in evil from you and even from those of us who never would have known their names. I have prayed for you today as you embark on this emerging ministry — it seems wrong to call it somehow “new” since it has been being birthed in you all along. But by your own account it seems God-breathed and a blessing, and I hope that you continue to be a voice in the Church for lament and honesty, to protect the vulnerable from sexual assault and violence of every sort. Godspeed!

  2. Les, as a family, we rejoice in your news. We rejoice in you allowing God to use you without dragging you to the alter… (no pun intended… ok, well maybe a little.) You are our, and we are so excited to see you back in a pulpit… you have brought hope to so many who have gone through pains of loss. In your raw, honesty, you have touched lives. Thousands. We cry as we read your words, we laugh, giggle, sometimes shake our heads…. but we grow. We learn. We rejoice. We pray. We pray…. always praying…. You, Becki, your kiddos…. are wrapped up in prayers by so many. We may have to make a trip up your way sometime next year and listen to you preach… Congrats.

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