The Great Adventure

Sunday is my day of reckoning.

I am excited.

I am scared.

I am worried.

I am full of doubt.

I don’t say these things to engender sympathy, comments, etc. After all it’s my blog and I can be just as honest as I want to be.

Sunday is my day of reckoning and I am afraid.

I want this new ministry of writing and speaking. I want it badly.

I want a new voice. I want the ability to share with the hurting, validate the questioning, and encourage the struggling. I want the ability and opportunity to make a difference in the lives of others.

I keep saying I… as if it is all about me. It isn’t. I know it isn’t. I am glad it isn’t.

And yet, I am afraid of failure.

I am afraid of success.

I am afraid of not being in control.

And that’s funny considering one of the biggest lessons to have learned–forcibly–was how little I or anybody else really does control.

But we try.

We try hard.

We go to every imaginable length to control or at least feel like we are in control.

Often it is a grand illusion. Until it turns out to be not so grand.

So this Sunday is fast approaching. It’s been a long time since I have preached. It will be the first time to speak in as large a setting as this.

I used to have lots of confidence. These days? Not quite as much. But, I have prepared the best I can. I think God has given me a message. I pray it will be of benefit. I believe it is a message every church, every believer needs to hear,

I hope that doesn’t sound arrogant. I hope it doesn’t seem as if I am high on myself. To the contrary, I feel as if I am the least most likely person in the world to have a message others need.

Until I remember my pain.

Until I recall my doubt.

Until I am faced once again with all of my struggle and questioning…

And then I remember. Then I reconsider. Then I know there are untold numbers of people who are also in pain. Who wrestle with doubt. Who question and struggle with deep, dark things.

Then I remember.

I remember from whence I came.

From where I still am.

And I know others need the same message of hope and recovery.

Sunday is my day of reckoning.

And I am afraid.

But I will face the future as boldly as I know how… and ever thankful for second chances and new beginnings.

Saddle up your horses we’ve got a trail to blaze

Through the wild blue yonder of God’s amazing grace

Let’s follow our leader into the glorious unknown

This is a life like no other – this is The Great Adventure…

 Come on get ready for the ride of your life

Gonna leave long faced religion in a cloud of dust behind

And discover all the new horizons just waiting to be explored

This is what we were created for…

Steven Curtis Chapman–The Great Adventure

Are you ready for yours?

Les Ferguson, Jr.

24 thoughts on “The Great Adventure

  1. Les, as a former psychotherapist who is now coaching, speaking and writing, I know how much what you are offering is so needed. We live in a culture that doesn’t like to admit to emotional or spiritual pain–we just don’t know what to do with it. We don’t know what to do with anger, doubt, cynicism, confusion, disappointment (especially with God) or anything that gets close.

    At the same time, we want to be honest, open and vulnerable. We just need help with that. You are that help. I wrote a blog post a while back, “Life Without Easy Answers.” That’s why you are the person to help others, you know there are no easy answers and on some level, there are no “answers.”

    We are all on a journey and we all need help of some kind from someone. You are that help and you are that someone. If you speak (and write) we will be there taking in what we are ready for at the time.

  2. Speak from your heart Les. Let folks in. The real you is what people need. Don’t be afraid to cry – sometimes people need to be a bit uncomfortable. Try not to connect with heads but defer to your heart and your gut. And remember that you know things that very few can relate to – helping them to understand is such a blessed gift. Lastly, know that folks like me are cheering you on and are so proud of you and the journey that you are on.

  3. Les,
    You are going to be great! We are rooting for you! I can’t wait to sit in the audience and listen Sunday. One day at a time if that’s too long get from breakfast to lunch if that’s still too long take it an hour at a time. Good luck and just breathe. 🙂

  4. Wish I could be there on Sunday. Maybe you will come to the Indpls.,area&speak&I can hear,you then. Will be praying for you.

  5. Praying for you! Trust…. I know that God will speak through you. Let go and Let God do the rest! Be Courageous…
    Haven’t I commanded you: be strong and courageous? Do not be afraid or discouraged, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go. Joshua 1:9

  6. I WISH I could be there come Sunday.
    I agree with so many of the posts above.
    So often people (and I am forefront in this!) are afraid to admit our shortcoming and failings in our relationship with God.
    I get a lot of encouragement from reading your blog.
    I am sure that Sunday will be a success – even if you don’t feel it at first.
    Be Blessed

  7. Les, I am going to try to make if over to Meadowbrook Sunday morning. I need your message. My doubt and questioning is certainly not brought about by circumstances as tragic as yours, but the doubt and questioning and disallusionment I feel toward God and the brethren is just as real. I know the courage and coviction you manned the pulpit with so many years and pray that it will be the same in your new phase of ministry. You certainly have a message many people need.

  8. Les: Your stuggles bring to mind a recent sermon by O.B. Richardson about God’s Will:(1) Not a Feeling; (2) Not a Formula, but (3) God’s Will is a RELATIONSHIP. I’m thankful to know that no matter how hard you struggle and wrestle with GOD, it is that RELATIONSHIP that will always EXIST! I’m blessed to know you and Sunday will be AWESOME! Rose

  9. Thanks for your message today. I believe that God used you as a powerful instrument to speak to Meadowbrook! God and you delivered. We are all on a great adventure into the unknown in our lives. Thank you for sharing your struggles and lessons in faith with us in such a meaningful way!

  10. Les, I did not know your story until after hearing you speak Sunday. But, then, I didn’t really need to know it to understand where you are coming from. Only someone who is fearful can preach about fear; only someone who is broken can preach about helplessness. Your message has been ringing in my ears.

    I especially appreciated your reference to Styx.

    God Bless you, Less. Thank you.

    • Thank you, Pat. I am so appreciative of your reading my blog–and even more the trust of your church in letting me preach!

  11. Your message was a blessing to me. I felt like you were talking to just me, but there are so many people who are hurting and need the same message.
    Thanks for sharing your message with us at Meadowbrook.

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