What Can I Do For You?

Yes, I know this is not the promised post Damned If I Don’t. 

It is percolating and playing its way out onto the written page.

In the meantime, I would like to ask a question.

Today, I spent some time praying for those who read what I write. I keep hearing from many that you are being helped by my out loud struggling and wrestling with God.

For that I am glad. It’s nice to know my limp is worth something to others.

I have a dream of how I want my voice to be heard–and whether or not it works out that way, only God knows as of this writing.

In the meantime, I am trying to be patient and trying to be content with where I am. (For my personality, that’s not an easy thing to do!)

So, back to my question…

How can I help you? What topics would you like to see my address?


I mean that.

You will continue to be in my prayers…


29 thoughts on “What Can I Do For You?

  1. I would like to know what the things were that you were sure about prior to 10/11 that are now not so clear. What is it that you now have real doubts about, especially in regards to assurance, including salvation, and many other “standards” that used to be clear that have now faded to gray. How are you dealing with them? How has it changed how you relate to others concerning your Christian faith? Also, do you sometimes wonder what life would look like if you couldn’t “perservere” and lost your way. Do you still fear that? Has your idea of God gotten a little more generous or “wider” perhaps? Have you ever looked up and said, “Are you there?” Tough and deep questions I know, but you asked….;-)

    • Sam, I should have given you instructions that said only one question! Lol! Just kidding, friend ? I will be honored to try to answer yours as well.

      • What he said. All those questions are great. Found your blog through a friend and am looking forward to reading. I’m so sorry for the incomprehensible losses you have suffered.

  2. Oh yeah, one more if I may my friend…..Is there anything that you used to say that makes you shudder now when you think of it, or hear it from someone else?

  3. How do you still believe at all? I think that is my most common thought as I read your posts. And there is no snark intended in that question at all.

  4. As odd as it may sound, it is so comforting to know that I’m not the only one that struggles. I personally really enjoy how you how your pain AND your newfound happiness. I am so very glad that you have found someone so wonderful to walk along with you on your journey. I like your connections to songs. I gave a speech in high shool on “It Is Well With My Soul” after one of your lessons. It is still one of my favorites hymns to this day. It was hard to see you looking at the song through different eyes. Another one of my favorite lessons from long ago was about the song “Pierce My Ear”. I would be interested to see your new take on it. Perception is everything. And I personally am music minded and know that we share that love of deep music. Hope that makes sense. :). Keep on writing….

    • Brooke. Thanks so much for that connection to a time long long ago. Sometimes it is hard to ever remember I was once a youth minister. Lol! And no, you are surely not the only one who struggles. My new tie on pierce my ear… Hmmmm. I’ll have to think about that one!

  5. I love reading of your struggle of loving God after what youve endured. I lost all faith after my son died….flat out hated God. Couldnt understand why he toom my child when i watched so many other children be cured of the same cancer. Then we met your family. You taught me how to love God again and even baptised me and Tyler. Then the tragedy with Karen and Cole….i hated God again for taking two such sweet souls. Ive gone to church…ive prayed…but not like before. How?? Even Tyler struggles….how do we get our faith and that amazing love we had for God back? We want it back so badly…..but dont know how. I would take notes as you would preach and have notebooks full. I read them all the time and tell myself itll get better. Please keep writing Les….please! Love and miss you so much..

  6. Reaching out to hurting people is one of the most difficult things we need to be doing. Just keep telling us what has helped and what has hurt! We love you and pray for God’s peace to come.

  7. Continue toward healing, faith and wholeness. Blog about the steps/strategies that work and those that don’t. This will serve to provide real hope to your readers when our time[s] come.

    The “Word” does say that in this world we will have trouble. No one is exempt.

    Your prayers are gratefully accepted.

    • I would like to maybe read stories about your family and get to know them-where you lived, accomplishments, funny expressions and personalities, how they lived their faith. One of your friends mentioned that your family responded to the aftermath of Katrina.

  8. I agree with all the comments above.

    Did you feel God through the initial part of losing Karen/Cole, did you feel Him there or did you feel like He turned away for that moment?

    At times of great difficulty I sometimes hear people say that they think God left them alone initially through it. I’m wondering if you felt that same thing or was it different.

  9. Ditto re all the GREAT topics above! Honestly, I don’t care what you write about as long as you keep writing. I am thankful that you can now write as a FREE man–one no longer constrained ‘from the pulpit’ having to wonder if every word you write will go over well and/or get you fired nor worry about people mincing over every little word/notion. Am sure you’re well aware of what I’m talking about. Will never forget when one of the ‘greats’ (Marvin Phillips) ‘retired’ from the pulpit–he was SO glad to be FREE and able to speak the truth (versus the pat c of C ‘isms’ he had to state in order to keep his employment). Keep writing, Les; hope you’re enjoying your newfound ‘freedom’ in doing so. 🙂

  10. I am so sorry for the horror you have had and still continue to endure. I pray daily for all those who grieve a loss. My question is a theological one: If Paul Buckman repented, is he in heaven? Since he was a member of your church, had he accepted the Lord as his Savior? Because you chose him to stay with your son, you must have seen him do good things. And please tell us how do we forgive as Jesus told us. I find it difficult to forgive small things, so how do people forgive those horrible, horrible things like you had to endure?

  11. I have not been able to read all your postings – you are very prolific – lol – so I am going backwards, reading the most recent. What I’ve read so far is helpful just to know that I’m not the only one out there suffering from loss.

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