In another world, in a different time, David Bowie sang that it was time to turn and face the strange changes…
In the same song, he also said he didn’t want to be a richer man, instead, he was just gonna have to be a different man.
While I wouldn’t sneeze at the opportunity to be a little more financially independent, being rich materialistically is not one of my life-shaping goals.
I’m just gonna have to be a different man.
How many times can a guy say indeed in one blog post?
Apparently, at least five times…
So once again, indeed.
I am just gonna have to be a different man and I am.
Strange changes abound. Strange changes indeed.
I suspect as long as I am alive, there will occasionally be moments of anger and pain, heartache and rage–yes, joy comes in the morning, but there are plenty more nights of questions and grief to come.
And I am ok with that.
Indeed (somebody stop me…).
There’s one of those strange changes… I have learned to not be afraid of it–grief serves its purpose and while tears can be bitter, they can also be cleansing…
I am thankful for many of the changes in my life.
I am thankful for lessons learned.
My reality has changed.
I am enjoying life.
To quote the Foo Fighters, who will have their own post fairly soon (as in almost done), I am learning to walk again…
I am wrestling with a new name for my blog. Desperately Wanting to Believe Again has served it’s purpose. I never quit believing. I do believe. I still struggle with trust at times, but I trust God even if I don’t always understand.
I am done with bitterness. I may be bitter at times or for a moment, but I never want to embrace bitterness again.
I may still have hurt. Pain will raise itself once in awhile, but I never want to be that guy again whose hurt turns him into a pariah.
It’s time to move forward.
It’s time time live again.
And I am.
Ok. So I am blathering on like the crazy strange man I am.
Four more things:
1. I am going to recommit to writing here more often–giving it the good old college try (whatever that means).
2. I am going to make significant progress on my book (call the first two New Year resolutions if you want).
3. If you have an idea for a new blog name reflecting my new reality, please share it ASAP.
4. Here’s a sermon from the first Sunday of 2015 (last week)–it ends with what I call a story of redemption, restoration, and reconciliation…
God bless and Happy New Year!
Les Ferguson, Jr.
and oh yeah, one more piece of happiness…
My beautiful wife and our new house in Madison, Mississippi! (This picture was from yesterday–after we closed on the house!)